How do they know my feelings?

For almost all of yesterday and today I have been feeling sad. A friend of mine called me and said she was wondering if I was ok, because she was getting some negative feelings about me...although she had not seen me the entire day, she said she could just feel it.

Another person who was around me for a bit asked if I was ok too, she said I was walking around in a 'cloud'. Another asked me repeatedly if I was ok, that was on the phone, maybe my voice gave it away? I don't know. Am I that close to the people around me that they can just feel when something is not right with me? I love them, they are concerned and I would be too if the shoe were on the other foot. In fact sometimes I get feelings like that too about my friends, I get a sinking feeling in my chest or my heart races and I think something has happened to them or they are going through something. I wonder if this is something instinctually built into us by Allah (Subhana wa ta'ala) ?

I'm not ready yet to share with them (or you) about what's been going on with me. I am just making dua to Allah to grant me what is best for me and make me content with whatever He has decreed for me Ameen.

Dua for Seeking Allah's Protection

Are we ready?

To die......

A sister I saw just last week, passed away suddenly on Monday, leaving her husband and kids. Innaa lillaahi wa innaa ilayhi raajiuun (Truly, to Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return). May Allah reward her with Jannah, Ameen. When it hits close to home we realize how frail and how temporary the life of this world is. We have to pray every salah like its our last, take care of our parents and family while we can, make a difference in peoples lives, do as many deeds that are pleasing to Allah subhana wa ta'ala as we can before the time comes when we can do no more.

She left behind a teenage daughter. Her christian relatives have since removed her daughter from her Muslim step-father's house, they want her to stop practicing Islam, and want her removed far from anything to do with the religion. She is an orphan now, her father passed away a few years ago. She did not want to leave. They also are refusing to allow her mother to be buried as a Muslim.

Please make dua for Allah subhana wa ta'ala to change their hearts, and for her daughter to hang on to the deen in all of this Ameen, she really needs our duas.

Changing the condition, one dua at a time

Bismillah,

Today on the day of Arafat, I sat and I reflected on my condition, I feel like I am at a standstill, and I need to move forward or I will fall into complacency. We all know that Allah subhana wa ta ala will not change the condition of a people until they change themselves.

13:11 For each (such person) there are (angels) in succession, before and behind him: They guard him by command of Allah. Verily never will Allah change the condition of a people until they change it themselves (with their own souls). But when (once) Allah willeth a people's punishment, there can be no turning it back, nor will they find, besides Him, any to protect.
(Holy Quran , Yusef Ali Translation)

A friend called me today and being my mirror as she always is, MashaAllah, she pointed out some of my faults.
“A believer is a mirror to his brother. A believer is a brother of a believer: he protects him against any danger and guards him from behind.” (Related by Al Bukhari and by Abu Dawood.)

After that lengthy discussion, and having been told bluntly what I was doing wrong, I acknowledged my wrongs and made a conscious decision to change InshaAllah.

So this is my dua of this day of Arafat, may Allah subhana wa ta ala accept it.

Oh Allah,

I have been selfish,
I have been arrogant,
I have been proud,
I have been envious,
I have been jealous,
I have been angry and not controlling of my speech under these conditions,
I have been neglectful of the feelings of others,
I have been dis-content with what you have provided for me,
I have wrongly judged others when You alone are the Judge,
I have not been patient,
I have wrongly said I will never do such and such, when I nor anyone else know what the future holds and only You are the Knower of the unseen,

Oh Allah, please forgive me of my faults,
forgive me of my transgressions,
forgive me of that which I associate with You knowingly and unknowingly,
rid my heart of arrogance, pride, boastfulness, haughtiness, jealousy, envy, greed, selfishness, anger and the multitude of other faults that I exhibit at times due to my lack of self control,
Oh Allah, Increase me in Eeman (faith), and Yaqeen (certainty),
Oh Allah, Increase me in Ridaa (contentment and pleasure with what Allah has decreed for me),
Oh Allah, fill my heart with generosity,
Oh Allah, fill my heart with humility,
Oh Allah , Increase me in Ilm, Increase me in knowledge of You,
Increase me in love of You,

Oh Allah without You, without Your forgiveness I will be truly lost.
Please forgive me Allah.

Ameen, Ameen, Ameen, Ya Rabbil Alameen