Today on the day of Arafat, I sat and I reflected on my condition, I feel like I am at a standstill, and I need to move forward or I will fall into complacency. We all know that Allah subhana wa ta ala will not change the condition of a people until they change themselves.
13:11 For each (such person) there are (angels) in succession, before and behind him: They guard him by command of Allah. Verily never will Allah change the condition of a people until they change it themselves (with their own souls). But when (once) Allah willeth a people's punishment, there can be no turning it back, nor will they find, besides Him, any to protect.
(Holy Quran , Yusef Ali Translation)
A friend called me today and being my mirror as she always is, MashaAllah, she pointed out some of my faults.
“A believer is a mirror to his brother. A believer is a brother of a believer: he protects him against any danger and guards him from behind.” (Related by Al Bukhari and by Abu Dawood.)
After that lengthy discussion, and having been told bluntly what I was doing wrong, I acknowledged my wrongs and made a conscious decision to change InshaAllah.
So this is my dua of this day of Arafat, may Allah subhana wa ta ala accept it.
I have been selfish,
I have been arrogant,
I have been proud,
I have been envious,
I have been jealous,
I have been angry and not controlling of my speech under these conditions,
I have been neglectful of the feelings of others,
I have been dis-content with what you have provided for me,
I have wrongly judged others when You alone are the Judge,
I have not been patient,
I have wrongly said I will never do such and such, when I nor anyone else know what the future holds and only You are the Knower of the unseen,
Oh Allah, please forgive me of my faults,
forgive me of my transgressions,
forgive me of that which I associate with You knowingly and unknowingly,
rid my heart of arrogance, pride, boastfulness, haughtiness, jealousy, envy, greed, selfishness, anger and the multitude of other faults that I exhibit at times due to my lack of self control,
Oh Allah, Increase me in Eeman (faith), and Yaqeen (certainty),
Oh Allah, Increase me in Ridaa (contentment and pleasure with what Allah has decreed for me),
Oh Allah, fill my heart with generosity,
Oh Allah, fill my heart with humility,
Oh Allah , Increase me in Ilm, Increase me in knowledge of You,
Increase me in love of You,
Oh Allah without You, without Your forgiveness I will be truly lost.
Please forgive me Allah.
Ameen, Ameen, Ameen, Ya Rabbil Alameen